humdrum and questions.

I was just thinking about how big plans and great intentions fall into nothing special.  A bunch of my friends from high school and I had planned to go to Europe after grad.  And yes, I realize that was a big idea, without any possibility of financial backing - but it's just one example of it.  I was so excited about the possibility of going to Asia for a mission trip, and when I learned I couldn't go, was content to know that obviously, I was meant to be at home.   And so maybe I expected to find an amazing job, or learn some great lesson, or ??? What could be bigger than teaching in a remote South-East Asian village?

Right now, I spend my days hanging up clothes at the Salvation Army.  Don't get me wrong - I'm thankful to have a job.  And it's not really that bad.  But sometimes I can't help but wonder if I'm missing something.

And as for great lessons, I've learned a few things in the weeks that I've been home.
1. A lot changes when you live on your own for a while - and I pray that I'll never have to move back in to my family home.  I kind of feel like I'm visiting.  Even at my church - the place where I most looked forward to coming back, the place I thought would always be home - is kind of like visiting an old school.  I love the people whole heartedly.  The building itself is so full of memories.  It's a place that I cherish.  But it's a place where I belonged once, and now enjoy going back for visits, but "fitting back into the swing of things" is not going to happen.  And actually, I'm kind of glad.  I don't feel as split between two places this way.

2.  KEEPING RECORDS, NO MATTER HOW TEDIOUS, REDUNDANT, OR OVERLY CAUTIOUS THEY MAY SEEM, IS VERY IMPORTANT.
As is actually doing the things I write down on to do lists.  Let's just say, a rather important envelope, with a rather large sum of money, and some very important papers which are required for me to have shelter next year, are lost some where.  And between Amber and I, we've both misplaced the tracking number.  What a mess this is! And I thought I was pretty good at keeping myself organized and keeping records.  Apparently not!

3. Going to bed.  Enough said.
I have to work tomorrow morning.  A humdrum job, but it's a job.
TTFN!

(Silly laughter, boing, boing, boing...)